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i want something that is hard to gain, i don't have assurance to what i am holding
it's all wreck and i dunno how to fix it "Love" surely it hurts me but im still holding on, for what? i don't really know people start to hate me for what i am becoming i hate my self that i can't change,im afraid if i let go no one will catch me or i won't let anyone catch me i hate this feeling i don't want to be alone i don't have to be when i have you i hate this why can't i love myself i don't care if i cry or be hurt i don't know why im so numb... i cry but forget 
Find me im so alone