A Friend

Is someone you would never dream to be your Boyfriend or Girlfriend.
(maybe you will sometimes but really don't dare friends are better than bf/gf)
someone who makes your life complete, They will make you feel all the emotions that can be felt in your lifetime  and still be there on maybe not always or not when needed but they are there.

~maybe this is the reason why i may grow old a single lady, i am too satisfied having too many friends~

3/24/2014
i was just thinking of my friends .. how the past years i've been celebrating my birthday with them
and how this year would be different... it's a choice actually... because i'm disgraced of what i've done..
i feel i'm something less that i shouldn't be their friend.. that i've betrayed their trust so i cannot be with them anymore.. i don't know what they think though.. but this is what i feel...
suddenly today one of them reminded me that on 27th is our teammates bday.. yeah i know i remember
that hers , maiko and my birthday sometime are celebrated at once with lots of people.. fun days which i wouldn't forget :) i wanted to cry feeling the guilt of betrayal , i still want to be with them... even when it feels so wrong. (have they forgiven me?)

the game called love

Looking back , "Wednesday, May 24, 2006" never felt like that with anyone else.
All my past relationships were like something to keep me busy , inspired or whatever reason.
Something to make me happy and forget life's sh**.
i never cared if they were to leave me i did try to put effort to making the relationships work.
But in the end of it all i didn't care and love as much as i did before.
i just keep myself busy and happy , That's life and love for me.